THE LOVER'S DICTIONARY Entries

Entries continued from The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan.

Bet v.

We use to make bets on the littlest things just to see who would be “right.”  What you didn’t know is that the whole time I was making bets of my own about what you were really up to…and for once, I didn’t want to be right

Bountiful adj.

During our first date I noticed so many things about you.  The way you wore your hair, the perfume you used, and the little mannerisms that defined you.  You spoke of all your life goals and I knew there was more to you then I could ever understand.  Throughout these years together I thought I was starting to figure out who you were but the girl on that first date has become a stranger to me.

Baby n.

How many kids do you want? Boy or girl? When should we have kids? What should we name them? These are questions that we’ve discussed in the past.  When you joked about being pregnant…a part of me wished that you were being serious.  Now that you are pregnant, I can’t help but wonder if that’s my son or someone else’s child

Banana n.

It was you’re first birthday in our new apartment.  I thought I would surprise you with banana pancakes.  All the effort I put into these pancakes and all you have to say is, “I hate bananas.”  How did this never come up in conversations?  It’s amazing how something as small as you hating bananas can make me feel like I don’t even know you at all  --BK

Calm, n.

You rushed inside slamming the door behind you, panting heavily as you laid the groceries down. You felt like today was a mess. What you hadn’t noticed yet was the warm dinner I had made and the romantic table setting was laid out.

“Welcome Home” I said as cheesy and romantically I could manage.

“What is all this?” you replied.

“Don’t you remember calling me and telling me how stressed you were?”

You didn’t but it was okay. We sat by a warm cozy fire the rest of the night before drifting off while still on the couch.

Construct, v.

You may not have this beautiful sand castle I built you on the beach in 20 years, but the memory of it will still pop into your head every time you see the beach. The sand castle had no particular meaning except to impress you. This was when we really started to click and build toward the future.

“I love it.” You said in the appeasing manner as to spare my feelings.

“Well you are my inspiration.” I replied.

At least we got a nice picture of the rekindling of our relationship before that child decided it would be fun to “storm” the sand castle and destroy it.

Contrast, v.

Darkness fell as I slowly started piecing together what had happened over the last four days. There was still one perplexing issue… who started all this? And how exactly were you planning on raining fiery missiles from hell down on me? I now sit alone in our house while you are at your mother’s house sharing the details of what happened. Will we ever agree on anything again?

Cracking, v.

You came back home and I was waiting for you.

“Where have you been?” I asked.

“I was out and about with some friends.” You replied in an obvious attempt to cover your tracks.

The truth was you were out with HIM all night and in doing that I was left here to think about where this relationship started to go wrong. --MP

Companion, n.

We decided to get a dog. He was a boxer, just a puppy at first, and your relationship with him grew stronger every day. Once your love for him grew stronger than what it was for me, I knew we weren’t going to last much longer.

Compression, n.

It was the first time one of us ever left. You bundled up everything and packed it into your little compact car and moved back to your parents’ house for a couple of weeks. I felt uneasy.

Compromise, n.

It was pretty hard coming back, but we were back to smiling every time we saw each other. We were both getting butterflies in our stomachs when we spoke. I was falling back in love with you, but I knew some things were going to have to change.

Consistent, n.

I don’t know why I thought things were going to change and become exactly the way I wanted to. I should have known that the things you do to annoy me were still going to be there, but for some reason it didn’t both me near as much. Was I used to it, or was it now an imperfection about you that I learned to love. –JR

Cabana, n.

            I loved this present you gave me. I remember the time and effort you put into wrapping this present. I almost did not want to smoke it. I was afraid that smoking it would symbolize our relationship deteriorating. I still have this cigar and we still have each other.

Cablegram, n.

            In the early years of our relationship you used to find the most creative ways to show your love to me. The fact that you used your father’s pull in the Navy to send me a message of how you felt that day means the world to me. The fact that we reinvent ways to demonstrate our love shows how unconditional it is.

Cacao, n.

            Your addiction to chocolate and my addiction to you; together makes the perfect pair. I see how sweet you are just like chocolate. Our love has blossomed over time like the growing of that perfect cocoa bean. Once I experience you, I don’t feel overweight, I feel overwhelmed with this feeling of a never-ending growth of love.

Cadaverous, adj.

            I don’t know you anymore. In bed, all you do is lie there, mute. Every effort I make to revive you, you don’t respond. I try to stir you awake with my words, my love. I wish my love could be that electrical current to make your heart pump the love it used to pump in my direction. --NW

Cabled, adj.

You asked me what I wanted for dinner.

I told you that pizza would be good.

You told me no way. We were going to have spaghetti.

“Why did you ask me then?” I said

You said, “I don’t like pizza. You should have known that.”

I knew it wasn’t your preference, but I like it a lot.

Why is it always that you get to make all the decisions? It’s like I’m trapped by you, unable to put forth my own thoughts and feelings.

Cacophonic, adj.

The snoring. It is really affecting my sleep.

Caducity, n.

I still remember sitting by the hospital bed at your side. Your face was disfigured, and you had a couple broken bones.

Me on the other hand? I was fine. There was a sickening feeling in my stomach. This was all my fault. I shouldn’t have been arguing with you about such tedious matters. I became distracted.

It should have been me in the hospital bed.

Calamitously, adj.

It rained, it poured, our wedding was outdoors. Everything was planned and perfect and then all of a sudden, the clouds decided to unload everything upon us.

We both got soaked

But when I put that ring on your finger, it was the happiest day of my life.

‘Callet, v.

“You know I don’t like that,” you said.

“I’m sorry I forgot,” I said

“Well can’t you remember anything? Did you pay the bills yet?”

“I’m going to get on that, I promise.”

“No, you are not going to get on that. You said that a week ago. Can you do anything right?”

“I guess not,” I replied –AL

Dactile,v.

When I first confronted you about him I could tell you panicked, your eyes moved quickly back and fourth, your voice fluttered, and you began making excuses.

Daffish, adj.

Eventually you treated it like it wasn’t a big deal, almost like I did something wrong.

Dalk, n.

It got worse, I acted like it was fine, but it was far from it. I wasn’t happy anymore, I was far from it, I couldn’t even remember the last time I was.

Damage, v.

Its over now, that was the last straw, the biggest fight we ever had. You screamed and yelled, threw plates and papers around. I told you to get out…. And you did. --ND

Dade v.

I can't believe you're making me deal with all the people alone. They're here for you, not me. I just don't understand why it had to be now. Why you decided to leave me. I feel like a lost child in a foreign country. Please give me guidance.

Deal n.

You're dressed in white and me in black. Today we make a deal.

Drama n.

Why do you do this to me? Why do you make me wonder if the baby is mine? Are you ready to commit if it is? Stop making me question.

Dreamer n.

You yelled "Help! Help!" in your sleep.  I woke up freaking out just to find you fast asleep, dreaming.  I rolled over and held you tight and you whispered "Thank you" in the most innocent voice.  You cried for help no longer. --DC

Doozy, adj.

    The first time we kissed, I knew this was something different. This was not a normal kiss, I knew I was sharing it with someone special, someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

Drayage, n.

    I take you to the opera, and rub your feet, not because I want to, but because you want me to and becuase I want this thing we have to work.

Dread, v.

    I worry that the next time I don't know exactly where you are and what you are doing, you will come home apologizing for another mistake.

Drenkle, v.

    It was weeks leading up to the wedding. We needed a caterer, we still had not yet decided on where everyone was going to sit, I still needed to find a best man. Our heads were just about to go under. –DD

Earnest adj.

            I started to make our conversation clearly and straightforwardly. I just not want to make her feel bad. I tried to bridge the gap between our relationships. I am trying to make our relationship best.

Each adj. or pron.

            From our dates, I realized that we are going our own way. This is ridiculous. I thought we are going same way, but the way is ending, and the way is divided into 2 separate ways.

End v.

            It was our last date. We did not act weirdly, but we did have sense that this is our last time. --LJ

Ignite, V

your presence is notice, how good could this be, why isn't your absence reflecting. yet still you are my shadow.

Idealization, N

i knew then, at that moment that my expectations weren't yours, when i was hanging my clothes while you were folding yours. your ideals of perfect isn't mine just so you know.

illiterate,  Adj and N

growing up i learned how to read, gut how come that theses days i can't read the expressions on your face. is is that i am ignorant of you. --WA

jacent, adj.

"I know when it happened, " I told you. You seemed so surprised at my words. "I called your friend to talk to you since you were supposed to be with her. All I got were ridiculous excuses that lasted for an hour." How can you seem so surprised that I found out? - This is all I could muster up as a thought. I finally asked you the question that left you speechless...

"Did you think I was too stupid to ever find out when or how?"

jackeen, n.

That look...It expresses more than you think. I want to constantly ask, "Am I that worthless to you?"

jacksy, n.

The bottle is always grasped in your hand. It makes you a different person. You become a person I don't want to be with, a person who acts better than everyone else with a pool-cue up your butt!

jaconet, n.

On my way home from work I passed a store with a beautiful blouse I thought you might like. It looked so elegant and I figured it would be a nice surprise. WHen I got home to give it to you, I found you take a present from someone else...someone who wasn't me. –JJ

Jaal-goat, n.

Your horns were crooked and your nose was smudged after forty-five minutes at the Halloween party. “Can’t you tell?” you yelled, running towards me, drink in hand. “I’m a CAPRICORN!”

I never got the vodka stain out of my silk shirt.

Jack, n.

You told me his name, anyway.

Jeopardy, v.

On our second date, the waiter’s hip bumped your water glass off the table. “Uh-oh,” you said, leaning down with a napkin on instinct, before the water reached your shoes. I knew you had it under control, but I leaned down, too, our faces close.

“Hi,” you said, and smiled under the tablecloth. I think my heart stopped beating.

Jerk, v.

You owe me a massage. --MR

Retry, v.

Let's go about this again. I know I didn't please you the first time.

Road, n.

Let's get again and get back together. If the road isn't passable, our road of love will bring us together again.

Rock, n.

I couldn't stand it any longer. The weight of your commitments crushed me. We have to take a break.

Rose, n.

Why do people think they can buy love? Why do people think buying something can mend their problems? My love doesn't come from money, it comes from my personality --JB

Laugh, verb.

“Remember that one time we took a vacation to Italy and tried to communicate to the driver but ended up making a total fool out of ourselves?” I said as we hung out with our neighbors one night in April.  You replied “O yeah that was so funny once we realized the driver spoke English the whole time!”  “Yeahhh!! Oh Good times!” 

Lay, verb.

“Honey, can you give me a back rub?” you said to me one stressful night.  I happily replied “sure thing darling, lay down!”  The next thing I know it turned into a whole night event, if you know what I mean. 

List, verb.

I walk in the house after a long day at work.  “You never took out the trash this morning and the house smells of rotten food,” you said immediately.  I replied sarcastically, “Hi honey, I am glad to see you too!”  Now frustrated and upset you said “well you never acknowledge me and my needs, so why should I care about yours?”  “Hey, where did that come from?” I replied as I moved into the kitchen to start dinner.  You, now angry, said, “You did not even notice my new haircut yesterday, or that I am wearing new clothes, or that the house is all clean.”  “Wow anything else? That is a long list,” I asked and further replied “what do you want for dinner?” in order to change the subject.

Luck, noun.

I had a bad day at work one day in the winter of 2000 because everything seemed to be going wrong.  I was board and did not know what to do.  I checked my e-mail to see if anything important came and the next thing I know I am stumbling on dating websites I never thought I would use.  But you were on too, that same winter day, and that’s when I decided to talk to you.  Just think if I had a great day at work, I may not have even met you, let alone get on a dating website. –NC

Matrimony,

Your parents divorced when you were a child. You didn’t know why when it happened. Now you realize neither one was willing to compromise. I hope we’ll be able to avoid the same mistake.

Mature,

Love requires a certain degree of maturity. You’re irresponsible at work and frequently late. But, you’re mature enough to know that you’re not mature.

Merge,

Your ten shampoos and body washes stand idle by my one bottle of shampoo. The medicine cabinet consists mostly of your makeup.

Monogamy,

You couldn’t abide by this principle. So I decided not to either.  --NR

Quake

            The time that you were laid off, I’ve never been so scared in my life. I felt like an ant standing before a kid with a magnifying glass.

Querulous

            Ever since you moved into my house, all you have done is given me grief with your complaints. It started with my food but now it’s the furniture.

Quiet

Sometimes the most communication we have is when we just stare into each other’s eyes. We are so silent, that the kitchen clock seems to be blearing inside my head.

Quote

            Even though I think that some of the words you say are peculiar, I find myself repeating them to my friends. I believe you are rubbing off on me. –DM

Quab

I look into the study where you do your work and where organization seems to have been lost for years. I really would love to ask you to clean the room for once but I know it would be in vain, easily dismissed with the common phrase “It will get done. Done worry honey.”

Quaddle

I watch you chase our son as he tries to follow the ducks into the pond. It brings tears to my eyes when I think of how this could have been so different, so easily. How it all could have been for nothing, just another broken heart.

Quadriga

That one night, the rainy one, when you were stranded down town and you called me to come get you. I spotted you standing on the side of the road looking, searching for me. As I pulled my beat up Taurus within your sights, your eyes lit up like they had just beholden the most luxurious, exotic form of transportation.

Quaff

I was so tired, tired of you sneaking around. Feeling your comfort absent from my life, I will turn to another type of comfort. --JM

Ruthless, adj.

At this point I feel like I don’t have to care. I shouldn’t have to listen to you explain yourself so that you feel validated. I want to let you stay in the purgatory between guilt and justification. I will lose my hearing as you spill your sorrys all over the floor.

Rutilate, v.

There was a golden aura around you when you have just woken up in the morning. Things like this that I notice make it hard not to love you.

Rabbet, n.

Even at our darkest points, even when I’m sure that you’re the most vile person on earth, and even when I question why you’re still around I know you’re the perfect fit for me.

Radness, n.

When I think about all the negativity our families see come out of our relationship I feel beyond terrified that they’ll never see the good. And I’m even more afraid that what they say is right.  --TR

rainbow, v.

Sometimes I am always thinking about my life before, which was so boring and a heavy constant, just working, eating and sleeping. All the things were already written in a script by someone. But, after I met you, everything changed. You rainbow my life.

Raincoat.n.

It’s raining heavily outside and it seems that a thunderstorm is coming. Seating in the office, I am thinking about you: whether you take an umbrella with you? Are you soaked in this rain shower? Will you get a horrible cold? Oh, how I wish I could fly to you immediately and be your raincoat. A raincoat, especially designed for you, protecting you not only from the annoying rain, but also from any danger.

Rumor. N.

Your friend told me that recently you have a very close relationship with your new handsome colleague. I hope what I heard is just a joke.

Rape,n

“Wow, our district has such a high rate of rape crime!” you said in surprise.

“Be careful; don’t walk alone late at night.” I said.

“I know, I won’t give any chance to the criminal!” you replied so firmly. --WT